3.23.2009

Be still and know that I am God

These last couple of months have been quite a challenge for us. Because of this rough economy my husbands' business wasn't able to make it, which left him unemployed for quite some time. No longer being able to make ends meet we had to say good-bye to our home and move in with Rob's parents. I've really struggled with finding the words to write about our circumstances (hence the month of absence). I didn't want to write about it until I was in a place of complete acceptance for fear I would come across as a whiny victim. I have found that the path to that acceptance is a lot harder and longer than I had expected. Our world has been turned upside down. We've been stripped of our comfort and have been deeply humbled. Our faith is all that we have now. The faith and knowledge of our Savior. I had never had a full understanding of the depth the Atonement can have in my life until this experience. I have had to surrender most everything to Him and find peace in His comfort. At times I allow the loneliness and despair get the better of me and even in those dark hours I feel my Saviors arms around me. Before I had felt lost in the crowd and now I know that I matter. That my challenges and struggles aren't unnoticed. That I am loved. Everyday is still a challenge... but everyday it gets a little easier... and everyday I find more to be grateful for.

8 comments:

Connie and Tony said...

I love that you posted about your recent trials. All too often people only post blogs about their fun and good times and try to appear like they have it all together. No ones life is ever easy or perfect but it's easy to think it is when that's all they write! I hope things continue to look up for you guys- I know they will!

Julie said...

Tiffany. . . I can't tell you how much I have thought about you. . . even before I heard that you were moving. We need to go get ice cream together. Are you up for a little girl time?

Thanks for your great comments.

Gena said...

Thinking about you & your family. Hope you are all doing ok.

Thank you for your post. It helped to remind me of the great peace & strength that can come from prayer. :)

Briley said...

Hang in there Tiff, you are both two amazing people!
love ya
bri

John and Kate said...

Tiffany I miss you! Yes we all have MUCH to be grateful for. At least you have good families to go to, to help you out. I was just reading about a dictators in other countries and how the people are starving or live in fear of terrible things happening to them. It's a nightmare. Most everyone in this country, even if they lose a home and their belongings at least know they can still live their life in freedom. There's so much to be said for that blessing we all share here. You are so awesome and I miss you a lot. If you ever want to hang out, give me a ring or I'll call you.

Him, Her & The Wee One said...

It's good to hear from you... I've been thinking a lot about you and how you're doing.

I'm glad you have family close by, your own sweet little boy (I miss his giant, alert eyes) and the knowledge of the Savior and His atonement.

My World said...

We love you...and miss you in our neck of the woods.

Gena said...

Hi Tiffany- :)
I can't remember how I linked to your cute blog...but I've had it in my bloglines reader for a few months now :) Sometimes I'm just bad at commenting :(
Hope you are doing well :)